Porsha Williams Refers To R. Kelly As A ‘Predator’ Who Sought Her Out, Opens Up About Being Sexually Assaulted By An Ex-Boyfriend + Calls Nene Leakes ‘The Voice Of Reason In My Life’
Porsha Williams is continuing to give fans an idea of what to expect in her upcoming book!
Recently, Porsha Williams dished on her personal life ahead of her memoir’s release. As previously reported, the reality star has already made an array of revelations about her journey to where she is today–including battling depression and suicidal thoughts as a child. She also revealed she had a series of interactions with disgraced singer R. Kelly, and she recently gave more information about this subject. She first acknowledged:
“I had my own business. I had my own home. [But I had] a mentality that has been conditioned over the years by men–that they are better than me. And I only have value if they say I have value. I think me being in that weakened mindset made me ready and available for him to be a predator, and seek me out. It’s just in my life at that moment, it was just yet another man in the same position doing the exact same thing: taking advantage of me.”
She proceeded to detail the aftermath of her time with R. Kelly, which she says ended after she heard a woman getting beaten up inside his home:
“When I got home from that last encounter, I knew I had hit a wall. And I was completely traumatized, completely confused about why this was now happening to me as a grown woman.”
Porsha then recalled sharing her story with the FBI years later, revealing she was grateful after the experience:
“When the FBI left my house that day, I was so thankful for where God has brought me now–oh my God. I literally could have had church right in my foyer. During talking to them, I had to be that Porsha to remember every single detail. But after they left, I just looked around my home, I saw my daughter later, and I just thanked God for just me surviving and being where I am today.”
She also recounted another traumatic relationship she had in her mid-twenties. After going to a bed and breakfast with a man referred to as “Southern Jon,” the pair became caught in a nasty argument. Later, when Porsha refused to be in the same bed with him, he attacked her. After initially fighting off the sexual assault, she revealed she proceeded to “lay there.” When the ordeal was over, she says she had a revelation about her choice in men:
“She’s looking for love in the wrong places. She’s wanting something from a man regardless of the red flags, regardless of anything else, and ending up in a place with yet another man who I loved who took advantage of me. I was realizing that there was a pattern when I saw the look in his eyes.”
In another unfortunate account from her mid-twenties, Porsha Williams also revealed an interaction she had with ex-NFL star Clinton Portis. She said that she discovered she was pregnant with his child when she was 24, and he allegedly replied by saying that his mother would raise the baby after Porsha gave birth. In response to the situation, Porsha made the decision to have an abortion.
Regarding her revelation about aborting a pregnancy, Porsha Williams acknowledged:
“Out of everything that I talked about in the book, that was an easy one. The shame and regret, and the hurt and the loss–all of that is the same feeling that a lot of women feel. Hopefully, another woman who is going through something like that, or has gone through something through like that, will be able to forgive themselves quicker than I did.”
At this point, it’s worth noting that Porsha also shared how her mother–known as “Ms. Diane” on RHOA–reacted to the fact that the reality star would address these sensitive topics in the memoir. She stated:
“[My mom] said ‘I’m behind you all the way. Whatever you want to do, I’m in full support of you.’”
On a lighter note, Porsha Williams then reflected on being on The Real Housewives of Atlanta. Regarding what she’ll miss about the franchise, she stated:
“I think about the sisterhood–I really do.”
She also addressed the influence former co-star Nene Leakes had on her life:
“On and off camera, [Nene was] the voice of reason in my life for me–helping guide me through this crazy divorce, this crazy new world of being a reality star.”
However, Porsha also touched on the not-so-great aspects of her RHOA stint, saying her worst experience was
“dealing with anger management. What I needed to do was get my emotions in check, and keep true to my character and understand what’s important. Through going to counseling during that time, I realized ‘You know what? How you want to leave this world, what legacy you want to leave behind?’ That’s more important than any argument.”
She then continued to speak on her decision to step away from the show:
“I knew that I wanted to semi-retire at 40. After I had my daughter, I just knew she was my world. That’s it. I just want as much time with her as possible. And with me in the past dealing with mental health, I knew that I needed to be as healthy mentally as I could be. No drama, etc. Just in a happy peaceful place for my baby girl.”
Despite this, she still calls her time on RHOA
“a journey that I would never, ever regret.”
With that being said, she then touched on what inspired her to become more politically active with the Black Lives Matter movement during the 2020 protests, which played out during season 13:
“After I saw what happened to George Floyd, I was sad, upset. I was in pain. I just wanted to scream from the rooftop. And I had to go and be with the people of Atlanta–to get in the streets and try to speak truth to power, and figure out what it is we need to do. And through that search, I realized that if I have this platform, what is it that I need to do in order to be effective for the movement? It just was something that I felt that I had to do, and my daughter was in the forefront of my mind the entire time.”
Finally, Porsha reflected on other ways that she has grown throughout her time on TV:
“I’m actually proud of myself that I was able to grow in a positive way. I didn’t stay stagnant. I grew as an entrepreneur–I grew as a woman of substance. I truly found my voice, right on television. I found my way… I’m human, I live with my heart on my sleeve. This is me, take it or leave it. And that’s just how I have lived on the show, and it’s done me well. Because now, as imperfect as I still may be, I love all of me.”
The Pursuit of Porsha will drop on Tuesday, Nov. 30th. Notably, this will be two days after the premier of her new reality show, Porsha’s Family Matters.
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